The part where I started screaming out your name-----

It was then the day when the summer-rain starts falling above my head.It was all in a piece of paper...a nice blue one....that blue index card she likes so much.March 28,2009.She asked me to stop seeing her please.....and blah! It was like---what was that? what had just happened? Before that...it was quite okay.I even remember her...arms around my waist----that same day when she told me that "you can tell someone loves you when they're still wearing your shirt"...and damn she was wearin' my shirt! And now I don't see her anymore----oh...yes I do see her still-------but then again no....for I've managed to try pretending that I don't and that she doesn't exist (0_o) Aww fuck! I love her! But WHAT HAPPENED??? Why'd she suddenly pushed me away from her and why is she cutting me off from her world like I've done something really bad to her??(Like deleting me from her friendster list and sending me message sayin' "pls stop this Symea stuffs...she's dead...let her sleep...I swear I won't bother you anymore" those fuckin' craps)  (0_o) Why can't we just be friends atleast...we can still talk with each other...or laugh with each other (not 'till the pain is gone of course).....why'd she have to go with that kind of goodbye? Aww shit I'm fuckin' confused (0_o)

Last Christmas was the happiest moment I had with her (oh...before they "took her away from me" that 24th day)....it was then that we we're holding each other like there's no more tomorrow...her face next to mine everytime I open my eyes and say good morning to the sunlight-------damn.....it was like...I'm seeing a different person now each time I had a glimpse of her along the corridor.It's fuckin' crazy how I lost her....that fuckin' blue paper----I don't need that crap! I need her---- need the girl who once told me she'd never leave me! Aww fuck...enough of these dramas-----------

"Hey,remember Pablo Neruda's poem?If You Forget Me......you said it was for me....wow if you noticed...I've dedicated that to you.I love you Arraine and if you stopped caring about it and about me then fuck if I'd care about it and about you!"

Mood: Irritated/Confused/Fuckin' drunk and wasted
Music: Change by Deftone